SwEeT dArKnEsS AnD AnGeL

2008-04-08T21:10:00.006+08:00

my lil sis...all grown up...

the guy who stole my heart....

the recent me.

me with my darling besties!!!!!!!!!miss ya guys lots...

me with my god son..hes turning 6 tis yr...

its bee a while...

2008-04-08T20:46:00.002+08:00

its already 8th april 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!when was the last time i actualy wrote in?wait ar.............ouh...may 2007...damn...tat was long....haha...

aniwae...todae's my bdae...happy bdae to me...didnt go out aniwae todae...fell siock instead....wad a timing...haiz....sometimes u realise..as u grow older....bdaes are noting to u animore..u dun hav the time or the enjoyment tat we use to hav wen we were young...
oh how time flies....already 20yrs olds...man...im old already...

so...wassup with my life recently....well...i changed my job already....no more in guardian...now im in kk hosp...hehe....to me..its an achievement to be able to get that job..wahahahaha...

family?...hmmm...still the same....except tat my mum no more wrking...following an accident earlier tis yr...my sis...in millenia inst...my dad?same old tingy...noting much to sae....bf?hmm...as usual..too complicated to sae aniting....

speaking of bf....my x bf..putra...contacted me bck.....haha...yup2...shocking...but he seems nicer now than last time...much more fun to talk to...he told me he had an accident in wich he had a concussion...lost part of his memory..but he remembered me...hmm.....like fale huh?as much as i wana believe him...for old fren sake...its like...hmm...i hav my own suspicions too...haiya....hahahaha...dun care la..wateva it is..if hes telling the truth..hope he'll get well..
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hmm...now i dont noe wad else to type....hahaha...guess ill stop here for now..hopefully i'l hav the time to write in more often...

im BaCk!!!!1

2007-05-21T19:57:00.000+08:00

hey....its beeen almost a month i tink since i last updated my blog......

been too busy wit work...

aniwae....i try to recreate my friendster blog....but there seems to b a problem

wenever i try to view my blog....this is sooooooo upsetting.......aniwae...my entry tis

time is jus to drop by....i'll update more as time goes by......

tkcrz pple....cheers!!!!1

its finally over.....

2007-04-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

his op is finally over....!!!!!!hes now in the ward...resting...sigh...miss him oreadi.....cant hug him much in the ward..hahaha.people can see...haha.....his mum is there too...so...must maintain.....

aniwae...yesterdae my mum n his met each oter.....they realli tok alot...haha.......they realli cant stop toking.....exchanging stories...and wat so eva.....lol...

ystd wen i reach the ward....saw him for the 1st time after his op...i cant stop my tears....i was soo sad to c my hubby lying there on the bed...helpless n in pain....it really hurts me alot.........he saw me cry...my mum cried too....its jus sad to c sumone u luv....always healthy...cheerful...suddenly helpless....n in pain.....i wanted sooo much to hug him ystd...but i noe i cant.....no words can describe how hurt i was to c him in that state.....no words can tell how much i miss him...how i wanted sooo much to hug him....n embrace him...never to let go...even for a moment.......mayb not for now....i'll jus wait for him to discharge from his ward.....then i'll hug him till im realliiii happy.....hahaha.................

aniwae....i aint gona write much...tired....n i wana watch tv!!!!yesh.....tkcrz pple...cheers!!!.....

p.s....sigh...tmr im working morning....haiz.....

im back to work tmr!!!1

2007-04-16T19:39:00.000+08:00

well...todae is my last dae of leave!!!!!im back to work tomorrow!!
sigh....time flies sooo fast...feels like it was jus yesterdae that i started my leave...now im going back to work tmr!!!......anywae....most of my frens are back from their taiwan training...including my hubby's frens.....so...sigh...he'll b back to his normal schedule....no more 8-5 schedule...lol....

he's going for his operation for his right wrist on the 27th..wich is nxt week...sigh....so fast...hope everyitng will go smoothly.....cant bear to c him in pain animore....

sorry that todaes entry is extremely short...got a fever...so cant tink much...till den...tkcrz pple!!!

yesterdae was fun!!!!1

2007-04-15T19:31:00.000+08:00

went to my my sister's skool speech dae ystd....my sister was great........she got award....truly proud of her.....saw my teachers...sum of them dun even recognise me.....haha.............

the skool was wonderful....its like a walk thru a memories of the past.....after the events...me n my hubby...walked ard the skool........it was realli like old daes...every part of the skool that i walked ystd...holds beautiful memories of me n my frens........went to the artic...that place really changed....during my time it was jus an empty space...now its a place where student can relax...decorated wit handicraft n artwrk of students.......we passed the science lab....as i walked there...i can still c us...me n my classmates in there...doing our experiments.....fool ard in there.......memories of my secondary times still linger in my mind...how i truly miss the time wen i cud spent time in skool wit frens....all the silly tings we do....oh ya...i passed the design n tech room..haha...still remember the time wen me n my frens tired to run away from that class......hate it soo much...especially the teacher....well....that was like...4yrs ago.......

aniwae...guess wad my hubby gav me for my birthdae? creative mp3...1GB!!!!!!!!!!
he was the one hu wanted to buy that 1gb mp3 but end up...buying it for me...it was truly unexpected........tot he bought me a bag or sumting...but it was my mum in law hu gav me a bag....he gav me an mp3.....

wen i open the present i was tinking like mayb he gav me assesorries or wateva...then went i saw the label on the box...i was like...OMIGOD!!!!!its an mp3!!!!!haha.....can still remember the saw to c the box....hahaha..................

well im still in the shock now....damn...hes sooo sweet......realli....im realli touched by his sincererity........i can truly c...that hes being honest....n really committted to me...

"honey....tanxy soo much...i'll do my best...to b a good wife...luv u lots.....and always.....muackz!!!!!"

iM oN LeAvE!!!!!

2007-04-14T08:47:00.000+08:00

its a saturdae...yesh!!!!!!im on leave...till mondae..hahaha...finally....i can rest for all i want...and put my mind off from work!!!!!

aniwae...as im typing tis blog...i jus got ready to go out for my sister's skool speech dae....wich is also my previous secondary school...lol...hahaha.its been quite some time since i last wen to that skool.....hmm...letme c.....last 2yrs?i tink?...hahaha.........cant remember.....aniwae...i noe theres alot of changes to that skool....lots of new teachers....most of the teachers from my time...hav either....transfered to anoter skool...further studies...go for courses...and get transfered to anoter skool....sad....like my form teacher....i tink now hes at anoter skool......wonder if he'll b there todae....it'll b great to c him again.....the teacher hu gav me courage n confident to go thru my studies...

those were the daes...haha...still remember the times where i used to drag wenever i nid to skool....complain wen teachers gives us homework...panic wenever we forgot to do homework...or forgot to bring it...haha....copy frens if we duno how to do it...haha.......still remember physics class...haha...i wun nvr pay attention in that class....wud fall aslp...well...not realli...jus sleepy...and cant pay attention to wad my teacher is saying...diyana wud slp....she wud jus lie her head on the table...and slp...like nobody's biznes...haha......mr ho,my physics teacher,....wud call out her name or go to her table to wake her up.....the rest of us wud jus giggle...same goes for english class.....hahaha.......my english was a nag....thats y class is always sooo boring.......damn........how i realli miss those times........all we worry abt is homework...test...and exams....hahaha.despite all that stress....we still hav time for fun....hanging out......being together most of the time....

well...time passed...and all of us moved on....now we hardly hav time for each oter....haha.but i noe...sum dae we will bump into each oter.....wud b nice to c a long lost fren...after sooo long nvr mit.....

aniwae....my hubby is late...we're supposed to mit at 9am.....and now its already 9.10am.....he is really late!!!!!!!we're supposed to b on the bus heading to my sis skool...and here i am still typing my blog...and him...im not sure where is he now...well...gtg....tkcrz....

home at last!!!

2007-04-11T16:23:00.000+08:00

finally....im home....!!!!!damn tiring todae...was on afternoon shift ystd....and morning todae....came to wrk...gota rush to get tings done...that woman is cuming!!!!haha....got tings done quickly...n got out of there a.s.a.p!!!haha....dn wana c her face...especially her nagging!!!hehe......

hmmm...sumtimes i jus dun understand these pple.....y they choose not to get c the picture that pple are not interested in knowing them....den they blame us for not telling them that we are not interested!!!!!

got tis guy...he kept on msging me....then add me as fren...but im jus plain not interested....but he kept on msging.....so i jus dun bother....tot by the 2nd time he msg or wen he add me i didnt respond...he shud get the picture that im not interested..instead he scolded me for not telling him that im not interested...come'on...its an online tingy....i cant b botered to tell u that im not interested...use ur common sense la.....!!!!!
this is wad he wrote to me........

"you noe wad...i jus dun get it...i msg so many time u nvr reply..add u as fren oso dun want.if ure not interested to get to noe me den tell me..simple!!! so i dun keep on botering u animore..."

someting like that...so i reply.....

"y get so upset...nobody ask u to keep on msging me...if i dun reply u means im not interested..ure wasting ur own time...its not my problem..."
well...its abit rude....but hu cares...hmmm....i cant b botered wit this kind of pple...they tink we're so hard up to get to noe them...
well'....tats all for todae....wana go take my shower....
till then...cheers pple!!!!!

PhEw!!!!

2007-04-09T20:43:00.000+08:00

phew....wat a dae...my bdae party was a great success...tanxy to my dearest
sister...shikin....she gav me the sweetest cake for my bdae...it was realli sweet of her......

that dae i didnt expect to hav so many guest...i was such a bad host....cudnt realli entertain
all....lucky my hubby was there...to hep me entertain the guys....my mother was a great
sport....she was sooo supportive.....my sis was cool...she entertained her frens...at least...got
lots of hep in hosting....

at first onli afni n kra8 came...then my hubby reached...soo after...my sis n her frens...den my
god son family...den my mums frens....in the end we got over 10 guest or isit more
than that....i duno...hmmmm...

seems like more than that...haha.....

my god son was jealous wen i wanted to carry aqmal...that cute lil chubby baby!!!!
hes damn cute lor.....wit such chubby cheeks....bubbly personalities...nobody can resist
him....haha..........

aniwae...the party went well...i was sooo damn tired.......my mum n sis went flat after
that...credits goes to my sis n mum...!!!!!tanxy soooo much....luv ya guys sooo much!!!!!
till then...cheers pple!!!!tkcrz......

iTs sAtUrDaE!!!!!!!

2007-04-07T17:35:00.000+08:00

YESH!!!!!!!finally....its saturdae!!!!!!tmr im off...and its my birthdae!!!!!!

hahaha.........

the party will start in ...like.....erm....2hrs time...and here i am sitting in front of the computer....jus got back from wrk....have not taken my shower and getting ready for the party......heeheehee.....

hmmm....at wrk today....well....its not sooo tiring....no stock delivery tode....so time was extremely slow....cos we got noting much to do...lol......basically we jus serve customers...maintain the store...hmm...tats it...yesh...i hav irritating and...i shud sae silly customer....mayb shud emphasise...REALLI SILLY......

sumtimes i jus dun understand these pple....they truly hav no respect for oters....sae...we are serving a customer...they wud jus interupt us and expect us to serve them first...wen aseked politely to hold on as we settle the first customer...they wud b angry...even to scold us....if only im not in uniform...they will get a basket of vulgarities from me...haha........nah..im not tat rude.....am i?

well.....its all in the daes job.....customer is one ting....my area manager is anoter BIG nuisance...haha.....once she comes....her nagging wun stop.........everyting is not ok to her....sure got sumting that shes not happy about....haha.....

enuf abt wrk...gtg n get ready...haha.........cheers pple!!!!!!

i Am SOo TiReD!!!!

2007-04-06T17:43:00.000+08:00

i am sooo tired...its a public holidae todae and im working in the morning.....its
saturdae tmr...and im working morning!!!!!damn.....jus a dae b4 my birthdae....hahaha......

hmmmm...a quarter of the year is gone......if i were to look back....soo many tings hav happen...

painful.....

hearbreaking.....

but that was all in the past...wad i care now is the present and the future....my one n onli lurve... harris....my dearest sistas...afni,didi,shikin...my family....my life....hahah..........

so many ting happen that almost pulled me down....made me wana giv up life......that the one ting they all called lurve.....mayb as time goes by...i'll tell ya all more in detail wad actualli happen to me....now...im not reali in the mood to tell....

sigh...my hubby is going for his op on the 27th...and im the one feeling the stress...haha........hope i''l b able to b by his side wen he realli needs me.....

tilll then...tkcrz pple....cheers!!!!!!

its been done!!!!!!!

2007-04-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

yEsH....
finally after hours and hours of editting the skin...its finally done...i owe alot to my sister..haha.....tanx dear...uve been a great help.....welll...i got noting much to write now...cos its kinda late..mayb tmr or wenever im free...i'll update again...
till now...cheers people!!!!!